Mean Girls / My "Diary"

Have you ever watch Mean Girls starred by Lindsay Lohan? Hmmm, maybe I'm kinda out-dated huh? Never mind. Still, I gotta thank to canteen uncle and astro to aired that at the right place at the right time.

Well, it's kinda educational, to me at least. It's funny, violent at the same time ( remember the part where Regina was knocked down by the bus? Eeewww ). To me, it seems to be that being frank to the people hate, dislike, is something really good. The most basic things to do when you are in a conflict is to confront, most of the time.

Confronting someone you dislike is easy? Naw.. It's tough. Perhaps tougher than to say "sorry" sometimes . Why does human backstab others (including of me also, somtimes --- we are human ma)? Is it really fun to do so? Or just by doing it, you are able to show others that you are persuasive?

I don't know. I just don't know. But, human can't live without these thingy rite? Human live to face all the challenges throughout all their lives. Watching Mean Girls itself, really made me reflect back those silly things which I did last time. I thought Mean Girls was just merely comedy. I was wrong! Human's biggest problem is communication. To get known to somebody, speak. To get rid of a problem, discuss. To express your love to someone, most-of-the-time, tell. Everything is about communication. Anyhow, anyway, you can't escape from being communicate with others, even if you are mute. There are alot of other means that you can communicate with people.

Communication itself, is the most destructive tool, but also the most effective tool in convincing others, as well as motivating others to be better. Words are sharper than knife. Be careful when you pick your words. Be considerate. Be sensitive, about who is the one you are addressing those words to. Some people is just too fragile, some are over sensitive.

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Midnight yesterday, around 2 something, I received a SMS. I was kinda blur at that time. After I woke up and saw the message again, I sat down and had a little thought on it. I think I shall call it an end. Disrupting people's life isn't good, right? Making the party felt insecured, although my intention was not that. I know. I felt it. I might feel the same if it was me. The feeling of insecure, might break people up, but also patch people into one piece again. I wish you luck, my "diary". Of course, we still can exchange thoughts using other mean of communications. Keep in touch. People outside there who are reading my blog, treasure those who are in front of you now. Don't ever let them go even if you hate them. Thanks again, "diary".

Yes To? Or Not To?

Well, it was a long discussion if I'm going to the UTAR Ball or not.. It has like been going on for... errr... 2 to 3 hours? Yet, no conclusion to that. It cost RM 75 each if come in a group of ten. The problem is not with the money actually.
It's with me...

First of all, go to a ball gotta bring a partner rite?
Naw... Everyone tell me NOT NECESSARY.

Secondly, what am I going to do there? I'm such suakoo and know nothing about dancing.
Who asked you to dance? Just go there and enjoy. *Sigh*

Well, till the end, it's still me. Maybe I should just go and see how they organise a ball at a university level and I'll learn, then next year join as committee, perhaps? Ok, I'll consider that... I said to myself.

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I reached back my room around 1915 after dinner.
"Hey, I already bought your ticket. " said my roommate.
(O_o)? What? Bought already? Great! Now that I've no need to crack my brain anymore.
Things has been decided. Well, I'll just dress up like how I did last year and two years back in the prom, but this time, with a jacket.

Hope that I do look good in my new outfit (with the 3-year-old long sleeves and pants and of course my tie ) and maybe get to attract some ...... Ah.. Never mind.
Well, I'm there to learn this time. That's my main objective! Other than that, it'll just be decorations to what happen that night. Now i'm anxious and longing to go to UTAR Ball...

God bless those victims who had suffered from the recent earthquake. May those who had passed away rest in peace.

Love~`````~

Below is a story that I quoted from some where. It's so touching that tears rolls in my eyes as it goes on towards the ending. Enjoy. For those who are emotional, please do prepare some tissues. I'm sorry to those who can't read Mandarin, I'm unable to translate it because I do not possessed that kind of language to translate it for you all. I'm sorry.


有一個年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女
孩,他每
天都會到女孩工作的店裡面買一包香煙,

漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉,當女孩工作感到無聊乏味
的時候,

年輕人就會出現,他會陪女孩說說話 ,或是逗女孩開
心.

女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,可是自己已經
有很要好的男友.



有商店夾公仔機...女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,

年輕人知道以後,當天他終於對她表白,希望女孩能接
受他,

不知如何是好的女孩,只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,她和他
是不可能的,

因為她已經有深愛的男友了,年輕人聽了之後默然的
點點頭,

他不死心的問女孩,自己真的沒有機會了嗎?



善良的女孩不忍心....

於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,

除非你夾滿100個娃娃,而且一天只能夾一個.

原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情 ,

她心想,一天夾1個娃娃, 最快也要三個多月之後才有
100個,

而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧



這三個月的時間,她會盡量與男孩保持距離,

年輕人還是每天到商店來,可是女孩開始變得冷淡,

他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,不過女孩依然
愛理不理.



因為她知道唯有這樣做,才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.

年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,

於是他每天夾娃娃,有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,

有時運氣差,零用錢花光了也夾不到,只好跟朋友借錢
繼續夾,一直到夾中為止.

L論花多少錢花多少時間,他每天一定會夾一個娃娃,

只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,

因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,

為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的
對女孩點點頭.



好幾次,看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,

女孩都想要衝出去對他說,

我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,就算你真的夾到100個娃
娃,我跟你也是不可能的!

但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,女孩就於心不忍,
她只能不斷猶豫.

就這樣1 天,2天,3天..,年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,
而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,

則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.不知道是哪一天,
女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲
的生日,

與男友吵了一架,而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便
利商店,

不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,他對女孩說,

可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,

可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,很生氣的當
場拒絕了他.

就這樣,年輕人走到娃娃機旁,默默的夾了一個娃娃回
去,

在年輕人離開的時後,他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.

隔天以後,年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.剛開始女孩雖然
覺得奇怪,但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石
頭.

可是漸漸的,她突然覺得不習慣,

因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,

好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,這時女孩才發現到,

原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負
擔.

只是一切都...女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊
天的點點滴滴.

哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,

似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.

所以女孩每天上班時,總是不斷的抬頭張望,

那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?







可惜的是,年輕人始終沒出現, 只剩下那台沒人使用的
娃娃機.

有一天,女孩下班後,在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人
一起來的朋友,

她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,可是年輕人的朋友則是
一臉黯然,

他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,

當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,映入女孩眼簾的是

一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,以及躺在床上動也不動
的年輕人.

原來年輕人的脊椎有病,必須要開刀才能保住生命,

可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,

年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,也就是女孩和男友大吵
一架的那天,

希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,因為他已經累積有98個
了,

然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失
敗變成植物人,

年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩,那是年輕人在手術
之前寫好的:

其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,

妳也不可能會喜歡我,我之所以這麼做並不是故意要
造成妳的困擾,

而是希望在我有限的時間裡,

證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,

這樣就足夠了,如果妳看到了這封信,

那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,對不起,或許我的努
力還不夠吧,

沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..

女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,那是99顆無法承受的
真心,

眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...

隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,

她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,

這時已經變成植物人的他,

眼睛流下了淚水...

Lyric by Buttercup

第一次表白 作词：Buttercup

在那二十岁的情人节，
我不知哪儿来的冲动，
很想告诉你，我喜欢你。
我们单独在那书房，
我却没有勇气说出口。
全身擅斗，开不了口。

夜已深，睡不着，
下定决心，传短讯给你。
隔天，您说给你时间。
事到如今，你还没有回应。
我痴痴的等待，日复一日，
月复一月。

终于到了那一天，
你突然告诉我，
要我寻找他人。

你怎么狠心说得出口？
我苦苦的等待，换来的却是，
一面冷屁股。
说什么还是朋友、不要逃避。
看着你跟他的背影，
我的伤悲，谁人了解？

事过如今，
再次见到你，我已心灰意冷。
当时的热情，已淡如水。
你再回头，已经太迟。
我已失望、绝望。
I’ll never be with you.

你怎么狠心说得出口？
我苦苦的等待，换来的却是，
一面冷屁股。
说什么还是朋友、不要逃避。
看着你跟他的背影，
我的伤悲，谁人了解？

不再有希望……

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This is my very first lyric. I don't know music at all. If there's anyone out there who can comment about my lyric(s) and also compose the musics, it'll be nice. Do comment more about my lyric(s) especially. Thanks everyone!

p/s : English lyric(s) will be coming up soon when I have the inspiration. (^^,)

Being Late

Thanks to someone, at such early morning, I know what to do with my blog. Well, down here is something that I've quoted from my own sayings and I modified them :

"Some ppl (like me) that are always on time, don't like to wait, BUT, there's always something in our mind(mostly): They might have something that drag them, till they're forced to be late. But of course, not as long as half an hour or one hour or more!

Well, what I can suggest to everyone is like :

1st, treat an appointment like a traffic jam. I'm sure you'd experienced tht before... Why traffic jam? You can try to put yourself in "their" shoes. They just keep waiting. Things that they want to do stranded at home or work place because of the traffic jams(waitings). Like you people would mostly write in your essays, "Never leave home too late and never expect that the traffic is better". "Their" mood, if it is an outing, might be spoilt just by the waiting.

2ndly, which is what I always do. I always plan to arrive at my destination at least 5 mins before the appointment time. In such, I got extra 5 to 10 minutes to do adjustment if i need to(which is like finding car parks and so on).

3rdly, if you doesn't wish to be late, but really caught up with something or traffic jam, do called up the person or at least, SMS the person maybe aorund 15 minutes to half an hour in advance. AT LEAST. This will show your responsibility to others and you do care about your job and customers(as in the corporate world). Some of u might say, why such trouble? Fren fren gathering onli ma, why so ma huan? Well, to be honest, I believe you all know that too, it'll eventually become a habit and a habit is hard to be removed/changed.

Well poeple, this is not directed to one person only. It's open to everyone, no matter you are the one who's always punctual or late. For those who are always late, this is a good opportunity for you to change. Change to a better person. Be responsible to your surroundings. Do put yourselves into other people's shoes. For those who are always early, you should know that, it's not all their fault that this become their habit. We should blame this on the culture. The Malaysian's culture. Have u ever seen VIPs, MPs, and those so called well-educated people (some of them) arrive early ( I think arrriving early is too much for the VIPs) or ON TIME? Oh, I'm 20 now and I think I have never seen it even once. How come ar?? They have all those traffic police escort them and still late? What the hell is all these supposed to mean? Isn't it? But of course, for those who're always late, never take this as an excuse for you if you want to change the habit now. That is not right.

To sum everything up, everyone is unique. For those who are successful, are those who are MOST responsive to change and NOT TO STAY. If you want to guaranteed a job (or before that) a recommendation letter (which most of you never thought of) from your faculty's Dean, or wat so ever, we all should change.

Again, I did not address this to one particular person. All that are with the name of homo-sapiens should read it and I hope that you all will gain something from it and I'm REALLY SORRY to EVERYONE that I always voice out my opinion this way and regardless your feelings. I'M SERIOUSLY SORRY and please forgive my foolishness."

There goes the quote. People. It's time to change. Never take things and people for granted. You'll regret from it one day. It's just the matter of time for all the pay-backs to take place. I'm not being harsh, but to warn you. I, hereby, wish everyone luck in turning into a new leaf. GAMBADE!

Nunchaku In Taekwondo and Results!!!!

Today, we used the biggest lecture hall in UTAR,PJ to do this special training of Nunchaku. If you don't know what is a Nunchaku, well, you know Bruce Lee? Yeah, that weapon that he loved to use! The Nunchaku itself cost me RM 50. Thank God my sir say give free class this time.

He taught alot of basic techniques, and I found out that alot of my techniques ( I did not really learn before ) were so similar! Am I that talented? Haha... Those techniques although are basics, if I can master them then I can come out with my own technique!!! I must train harder this time!

I never knew that I actually got to learn Nunchaku in Taekwondo beause in Taekwondo, you can really hard to see a weapon as we are more towards hands and legs techniques.

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Finally, after a long long long long long wait, my last semester's final exam results' are out! I would't say that I got a very good result as I think I should get worse (*something in between that is not to be mentioned here) due to "something". I got A for English Language, B+ for Principle of Economic, B for Mathematics, A for Computer Studies, B- for Biology and Chemistry I got a A-. CPA and CGPA are both 3.45 . Maybe you might say that I take things for granted but I know where do I stand in this case. Sigh. If there's a ranking, I can't even made it into the Dean list. Sad sad... I must gambade!!!! Students out there that are sitting for their exams, you too must gambade o~ Give you guys something, it helps me througout the exam and it motivates me everytime I look at it! I hope this motivation lasts forever for me and probably, for you too!

NOW OR NEVER

NOW = study now

OR NEVER = or you might/never get the chance again

Moral of this phrase = Do what you can to study now. Of course, at the same time, don't over-stressed yourself. If you know that you've already done your best, that's enough. DO NOT REGRET LATER, IF, YOU DID NOT STUDY NOW.

To show my appreciation from whom I got this phrase, I wanna announce to the world that, THANKS MINI-CHAN! You helped alot!

Thanks Mini-chan!!! Thanks Mini-chan!!! Thanks Mini-chan!!!

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For no reason, I'm blank today. There's only a 2-hour lecture today and I almost fell asleep after the first hour. Not because of the lecturer was too boring but I was restless. Well, this new semester seems to be very interesting now.

I learn how to play Dot.A recently. Well, I'm a noob after all. I started to realise why people like it so much. It really require alot of skills, hand and eyes combination, and unexpectedly, courage!!!! Funny rite? I never knew this game need all this until now, after my roommate teach me yesterday.

Hmmm, a good thing and a bad thing are starting at the same time huh? Good = I can play Dot.A already; Bad = I hope it won't affect my studies, and I mustn't let it to do so!! After all, it's only beginning of the semester. Towards the 2nd or 3rd week I won't have that much of free time already.

Just now when I was chatting with one of my friend, she suddenly said that she gotta go because her house was robbed!! Nowadays, robbers, snatch thieves are everywhere. Guys and girls, please look after yourselves and your family properly. Also, I read a blog. He wrote this :

Please be careful on the road.

With this I would pray that the Lord up above
having Alan (WIlson's younger brother) in his arms
and take good care of him.

Please do be careful on the road, Alan passed
away from a road accident. He wan's wearing his
helmet that doesn't mean all car drivers are safe.

Please do be careful.... My codolences again...

God BLess him and his whole family. Amen.
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Be careful on road. Be a responsible driver. Be responsible to others also.

Bloody ........

Well, today after doing experiments in lab, I head down to PB block for the blood drive. Well, the hall was better than I expected. There were quite a number of people there. I would say that the committee that organised the blood drive was very thoughtful. They even set up booth to keep our belongings. You can also hear very nice background songs like Kelly Clarkson's Because Of You, Lindsay Lohan's Over and so on. The songs were very soft but good enough to listen and the lighting is perfect. It makes people felt relaxed instead of "dup dup dup" in your heart.

Well, like usual, I got my number, get my blood pressure checked, then move on to verify data, then to check the blood type again. For those who did not donate before, they check your blood type by using a pin to pock a hole in your finger, mostly middle finger. Why? According to them, there are more veins there. What is it like when they pock it? Oh, simple, you'll first hear the sound "click" then your finger is bleeding already, but, how pain is it.? Well, have you ever staple a staple into your hand or fingers? Yeah, it's something like that.

Then, I waited for my turn. I saw a place empty but I didn't take it. It's because the chair has a arm rest that is for right hand. I don't want my right arm to be pocked!!!! Sigh.. "Hey boy, please sit over there. Don't worry. It won't hurt." said the nurse. Oh my God!!! It's like, how many? 20 person around there looking at me. It's not that I'm scared or what. I just don't want my right arm to be pocked. Still, I sit on the chair and nurse started to inject me with "bius" and then the show has started. She pocked that big head needle into my vein. OOOOOOUUUUCCCCHH!!!! Haha.. Gotca!!! There's no pain at all. Numb already ma... Haha...

Well, unexpectedly, people from the UTAR Marketing Department also came. Then, the three of us started to compete to see who finish the donation first. Needless to say, I am the winner! Hehe... I rested on the chair for a short while then I go get my Milo and a packet of goodies.

Well, like what I've said before, UTAR's co-curicular activities really sucks most of the time. Even it is so, after seeing the effort of the First Aid Society's members, I made up my mind to take part in it too. I gave my name and contact number, but, I'll be contacted again to see if the application is approved or not. I hope I get my application pass through and also this society will be active. Don't fail me ya First Aid Society.


People!!! Please do donate BLOOD if you are fit and healthy. They really need alot of blood to save lives. Any blood type will do and those who are with type B are most welcome!!!This is because they lack of type B blood in the blood bank! Help people, help yourself.

Arrgh!!! What's Wrong With My PC and MSN Today? And The Gal... Who Is She?

Once I on my pc, " CMOS problem. Please use USC". What the heck is that supposed to be? Ok.. I've learnt Computer Studies before so i roughly know what is CMOS. It's a kind of memory. I don't know why and don't know what to do. My pc just won't start.

After a few times restarting, it's still the same. Damn!!! ARRRGGHH!!! Luckily, I'd experienced the similar problems before. So I got to settle the problem based on my basic knowledge.

Yeah!!! Finally my computer get to start already... Ok.. I opened all the normal applications, until... MSN!!! "Your gateway is currently offline." What? What was that? *My blood started to boil already* I check all the places, connectivity, password, e-mail address, ect ect... All was ok.. Suddenly I saw the time in the right down corner of my screen. It was written 1235 (pm). I was stunned! I checked the date. 27th May 1996. Can you imagine that? Guess who's the culprit? It's that stupid CMOS again!!!! ARRRRGHHH! Feel like "dissecting" my laptop and crush that stupid CMOS!!!

After changing the date, everything got back to normal but when I restart my pc, still, that CMOS still bugging me badly. Looks like I gotta find some experts in Pyramid to get me something like a battery to settle this stupid CMOS!

Well, after all, today isn't that bad. I saw a girl after my school. She waved to me. I replied. Then we both just passed by like that. Then I realised that I know this girl but I don't know this gal as well! She's so familiar to me but I couldn't recall who she is. As I recalled back, I remembered that I'd spoke to her once but I dunno when and what's the content.

She's just like someone who's close to me but I just couldn't remember a thing. I don't even know her name. Everytime when I try harder to recall who she is, my forebrain portion endure a severe pain. Don't know why. I just couldn't recall. I hope to see her one day again and ask her who she is. It's a funny kind of experience that just like in the drama. Like, someone in your past life. That kind of feeling is weird. Nice. Scary. I just couldn't find the correct word to describe it. Anybody help me?

I meme? I dunno. I just copyrighted ohters.

I AM: a guy, who is desperately need l...? Haha. Dunno.

I JUST NOW: was blogging, read others' blog... Chatting msn..

I SAID: " never be late, even a second!" when i'm carrying out duty as a leader.

I WANT: a gf perhaps but maybe not now. I want all my beloved families, frens to be blessed, as well as those who are suffering from disaster, war and so on. God bless everyone!

I WISH: I was slimmer too, less pimples and oily face and also smarter in every sense.

I HATE: people being late for appointments. Never be late if you got a date with me unless u got a solid reason or excuse for that!!!

I MISS: my frens from Klang, olden days, NS frens, soft skill course frens.

I FEAR: just like Esther. I wonder wat love really is. Haha. I fear that I dun have enough time to do all the things tht I want to do but i'll do my best to complete them all.

I HEAR: the radio making some noise but dunno wat the DJ talking bout.

I WONDER: if I'm able to discover cures for cronic diseases world wide.

I REGRET: not studying and din put all my effort in. I regretted but i dunno y still doing it. help me

I AM NOT: wat u see actually, only those who know me know tht i'm actually not what you see of me on the surface only.

I SING: to express myself. Of course. I'm a terrible singer. See, it's gonna rain d.

I CRY: I cry? I alr lost the ability to cry so long ago. I wish I could. I would like to know what is the feeling of crying again.

I AM NOT ALWAYS: tht "bad people". Look to the inner me. It's beautiful on the inside. I'm kind. haha!

I MADE: my bed. I can do some simple maggie mee cooking. I can do chores.

I WRITE: my feelings, expressions in my blog. just that i regret i couldn't place names there.

I CONFUSE: when gals, especially, giving funny "clues", "tips" or "body language".

I NEED: money to support my family

I SHOULD: be studying now.

I START: my day at 0600, sharp everyday except sun.

I FINISH: doing some thinking.

I TAG : kavume, peggy, amy da great, mini-san.

First Day of Skool

I woke up at 0600 like usual. I took get myself groomed and went downstairs to carry out mmy routine--practice Tai Chi while waiting for bus. To my surprise, there were already some freshies waiting for bus as early as 0650 when the bus will only be arriving at 0715.

Well, as expected, PA block was flooded with homo-sapiens. Really scary. Heads everywhere. New faces everywhere. It's kinda weird this time. Leng Cais everywhere but I can hardly see Leng Luis. Never mind.

LENG CAIs got but where are LENG LUIs

Guess what? I was in UTAR today at 0723. The total lecture hour today is only 2 hours and 15 minutes. The last class ended at 1700. Just imagine what I did the whole morning. Thanks to the "free time" given, I discovered a very nice site. www.miniclips.com. Go and have a look at it.

Things are going on well. New roommate, ok. Timetable, ok. Results? Uncertainty. Just wait and see.... Adios.

Tomorrow School Starting Already!

Yo!!! I'm so glad that tomorrow school reopen again!!! Yay.!! I've been wondering aimlessly for one week. It's really torturing me!!! I can't stand it! But now, everything will be different. My life will be full with challenges again! Yeah! I'm lovin' it!

Well, a new roommate has come in. He's not bad looking, honestly... And his sister not bad too! Haha. I'm bad. Sadly, I don't have the courage to even know the name as usual. Never mind! It's destiny. Let the God decide it.

You’re Beautiful – James Blunt

My life is brilliant

My life is brilliant

My love is pure

I saw an angel

Of that I’m sure

She smile at me on the subway

She was with another man

I won’t lose no sleep on that

Cause I’ve got a plan

Chorus

You’re beautiful

You’re beautiful

You’re beautiful is true

I saw your face

In a crowded place

And I don’t know what to do

Cause I’ll never be with you

Yeah she caught my eye

As I walked on by

She could see from my face

That I was, flying high

And I don’t think that I’ll see her again

But we shared a moment

That will last till the end

Repeat Chorus

La la la la

La la la la

La la la la laa…

You’re beautiful

You’re beautiful

You’re beautiful is true

There must be an angel

With a smile on her face

When she thought that I

That I should be with you

But is time to face the truth

I will never be with you.

I love this song very much. It tells my feelings. It hurt me and yet, heal me at the same time. Gob bless everyone with LOVE.
Recently read some other blogs and they did enlightened me. Things that happen in this world is and are always unpredictable although you might get to control some of the events. Galaxy, Planets, Earth, Nations, Governments, People. All are randomly and rapidly changing and we won't know until it's too late. Wrong decision is being made. Bribary everywhere. "People killing People dying, Children hurting and they're dying".

People fell apart, patched again. People do love each other but they never know how to address their love to others properly or in a way that they wanted to. Communication is the key to this problem. Being caring, understanding and tolerate play important roles in a Man's life. "Appreciate people and things in front of you. Do not regret when you lost them later because you never learn to appreciate -- A Chinese Saying".

PEOPLE! LOVE is in the air! Learn to grab them and let LOVE guide us to our future!

After Such Long Time...

After a loooooooooooooong holiday, finally I'm back to my hostel on Friday nite. Well, on last Wednesday and Thursday Wai Loon, Horng Tat and I had a good fight... After errr, 4 months? Yeah... so long did not get to fight anyone... They have improve alot and I kena whack "kao kao" also...

Today, went to give a hand out in UTAR's orientation. Well, maybe I'm kinda a spoiler but err, nvm la.. If not I'm not Kenny d. Well, starting itself is not well-organised already, but this is normal isn't it? The timing was kinda a mess, groups were flying everywhere. End up, chaos( not that bad la ).

Still, I must compliment that all the organising committee members and those facilitators, game master and helpers were well co-operated and kinda restore the situation. During the post-mortem, the KENNY has been released from it's seal ( if you watch Naruto, just like tht Kyuubi in Naruto's stomach ). I really blast them "kao kao" but i feel bad also... I'm merely a helper and not much contribution that I'd made, but my mouth just like chicken backside, keep on blasting people. Arghh, thing that I hate most is punctuality. I really wonder when Malaysian can get rid of that name. Maybe i'm too much also la. Sigh. I was in school 0630 ( I was afraid that no public transport but eventually a cab came by ) just to wait for tht guy who's gonna brief me sharp at 0700. And he was never seen. Untill everything has started. Nvm.. I always bad-mouthed people. I'm bad.

Well, people always like that isn't it? Because of different kind of people on this Earth, hence our lifes become more colourful and more challenging. Throughout our living days, we grow because of these people. So whenever you encounter one, please do not hate them. Thank them instead! They brought out the inner you and show you a better way of life!


Long live to all my challenges

Finally It's Over...

After a few days of preparations, efforts of so many people involved, it ha finally come to an end. It's amazing to see that people who know each other for such short period, can even become a family in an blink of an eye.. Amazingly.. no tears are shed today!!! Everyone's happy because we had gain something from the course that we participated in, and made a lot of new friends that come from FAM, FES, FICT, FAS! All of us come from different background, region, and profession (to be)!


From left : Me, UTAR's President Tan Sri Dr Ng Lay Swee,followed by Lau Yi Xing and Loh Chia Hur (my emcee partners)

Today everything went on well... I delivered my "speech" and I think I've done my very best and I hope I did not let any party down. I also greatly wanna deliver my gratitude to those participants from Class 1 and Class 2 for being punctual and co-operative! Special thanks to Class 2, although I did not know them much, maybe less than an hour, but, they still very nice! Me feel like dropping my tears now.. So touched! I'm not lying here! They are all nice people! Everyone there! Really hope to meet you all again, anywhere!

Time flies.. When in the first day of the programme, I feel like going back home due to tireness and so on but on this very day.. I'm reluctant to move my legs from the graduation hall. I really feel that throughout all these days, I've seen people of all kinds, and also discovered ourselves using all kinds of method! We are all now, a better person, with higher self-esteem, and also much better in communicating with other people! I've seen one of my coursemate, she drew so much of her courage to present in the class. She did well and guess what, she cried after that. That very moment made me feel that, she's really brave that she broke through the barrier and she shed her tears of happiness!!! I'm very proud of her and I'm sure that all trainers felt the same!

To all Intensive Immersion Programme participants, CONGRATULATIONS! You'd made the correct decision by joining this course! Gambade and keep in touch!

Busy, Tiring, Speechless, and Hungry Day

To start off with, it's really a tiring and challenging task. Even dealing with "somebody" itself is already tiring enough. Oh.. there are kinda some changes in the speech today itself... Gotta re-memorise them again.

Well, you might just couldn't imagine how fast a person can change from a harmony-looking "somebody" into a real dictator... I gotta learn to deal with this type of people... Maybe it's a "pay-back" time to me for what I've done during secondary school time? Haha.. God knows!

Sigh.. so sad.. I'm actually forced to go back to my home tommorow but not Friday... You might ask why sad? Well, the answer is simple... I missed you all lo.... My dear MSN, FRENSTER, BLOGS.... Haha... I can only get in touch with you guys again only after a week or two... Anyway, gambade in everything you do ya!!! If you missed me, I'm just a call away o~~


I'm gonna miss you all!!!

Here's some pics my frens took during these few days...


This is the pic taken in Seminar 4 with my fellow coursemates...


sorry.. dunno how to rotate it... looks like kena bully or like opera ppl o wat? panda maybe? hehe..FYI, i put on lipstick and gloss too!!! Muuuaaaksss!

Buttercup's Day Out

I supposed to borrow a coat from a UTAR staff but it turned out that, he needed to use it as well on the same day same time, so i'll have to proceed to my Plan B. Once my course for today is done, I rushed back to hostel and took a quick bath, took my dinner and rushed to the huge Mid Valley. It was kinda jammed on the way there.

I HATE TO DO SHOPPING FOR MYSELF CAUSE I DUNNO WHAT TO BUY AND HOW TO SHOP!!!!

Guess what? It is so big that I had to looked at the directories to find Men's Wear. And I was wondering, what the hell is their management doing... So many of their directories are wrong!!! Some of them even led me to lingeries shop and other stupid shops... Such huge organisation make such silly mistake.

Well, Mid Valley isn't that big, rite? WRONG!!!!! I lost my way inside there. It's like, how many stories? 5? I went to each and every floor to find those shops that sells coat, department stores all, and the result was satisfying, but err.. those shops ho.. cheapest is RM398.00 and NO DISCOUNT!!!! My eyeballs almost fell out.. but that is not the best part.. there's one store I saw, selling coat itself only.. guess how much? RM200? Naw.. it's RM2000!!!! My soul almost leave it's container. Such piece of thing need so much? I think I should become tailor also arr...

Finally, after almost 2 hours, I finally found something I want. It's by SUAVE, RM199.00. Luckily not RM200.00. I wanted a size 52 ( I don't really know how they measure ) but those which are available only size 50 and 54. When I tried on the 50's, I look so cool... but err.. can't breathe. So gotta take the 54's. I quickly paid and went back.

Oh, again, I lost my way.. I dunno where's the exit. I turn round and round, asking people on my way.. and I got my way to the taxi and went back to hostel.

I calculated, a SUAVE coat, RM 199.00, taxi fee ( go and forth ) RM 10.40, mineral water, RM 0.45. OOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! It was a total of RM 209.85!!!!! Why so expensive one??? Jior... My pocket got a burnt hole already.... This amount of money is equal to my monthly expenses on food in PJ!!!! Damn... This month I can become thinner already.. Should have bought the size 50 one...

Since the first day I stay in PJ, I've never travel to places other than university and hostel itselves. Only TWICE I went out to Mid Valley from PJ, the very first time was due to the "value-added" water that smells "nice", and the second time , this. Maybe I should go out more often. If not, I might lost my way back to home one day...

Summary : I hate shopping in huge malls without a proper sign board!!!

My day out was full with challenges, isn't it?

Boring Sunday That Turns Out To Be Meaningful Now

Today is really such a stupid boring ordinary day. That's why I never like long holidays, especially holiday's Sundays!!! The whole day just flying around doing nothing and very not productive. !!! I bought two newspapers, The STAR and Sin Chew Jit Poh but I haven flip even A PAGE till now.

Oh ya.. China WON the Thomas Cup and Uber Cup rite? Hmmm, they must have grown stronger since the last tournament. It's such a waste that Hisham(or Hashim I dunno) lost that match. If not it might be that Malaysia is fighting against China and probably won the title!!!Denmark also a very strong team I would say... It should be the 8th time they went into final but lost.


I just really don't understand why does people like long holiday. I can't stand it.. Anyone would like to suggest me to do anything besides shopping, outing?

HOLIDAY IS BORING!!!!

Well, it is also nice to know that outside there, they are people who are like me... Lonely sometimes, yet, still facing the outside world challenges and also fighting against the devil inside ourselves. Angels will always try their best to tell you not to do this and that but devils only have to show you a candy bar and you'll follow them. To those who are outside there reading and facing a problem currently, always remember, God is always be with you. With your strong will, confidence, everything will eventually turn out to be fine. Let bygone be bygone and look forward into the future with a truthful smile on your face. "If you see someone without a smile, give them one of yours"--quoted from a friend. Share your love not only with those who you love all these while... Open your heart to other people and just look around you, there are still many people who is more unlucky than you, at least, you still have clothes to wear, a shelter over your head, family that treasures you, and friends around you. Some of them outside there might not have even one of the mentioned. Whatever religion you are, when you pray, pray for others as well. I did not say this myself, I quoted it from the Al-Quran... sounds funny? well, I take what I think is logical and practical. So are you, don't always listen to what others say and follow blindly, think, digest, then absorb what you want and throw those useless ones away.

LOVE IS ALL AROUND... SPREAD IT TO EVERYONE YOU CAN REACH AND LET LOVE FILL UP THIS VERY ATMOSPHERE!!!

If the person you are talking to doesn’t appear to be listening, be patient. It may simply be that he has a small piece of fluff in his ear – Winnie the Pooh

Something New

Well, although the blog's name was "Heaven of Broken English", I would like to add in new element into here, which is also the mandarin articles... So that it fit different readers' appetite.

新的元素， 新的开始!

这个部落格呢，我把它将当成我的试验品吧！让我做一些东西让我的部落格以后更加的有趣，生动！

就比如这个吧，如何？


这次的华文部落格我还没有灵感说一废话比较多咯！

看看以下的一些照片吧！神奇吧？









大家要加油哦!GAMBADE!!! ^^,

Great Day Playing Around With Makeup Products

Shiseido Makeup and Hair Styling Session

Well, the session started sharp at 0900. I like that. There goes the introduction of the trainers and hair stylist. Wow… One of the trainer not bad looking huh…haha, too bad that you guys out there can’t see her cause I don’t have a camera. A total of 4 of them, 3 ladies and one gentleman --- the hair stylist. The lesson started off with introductory of our skins blab bla bla.

Then they gave us small sample of their products so that we can perform the instructions as they are teaching. The sample bag inclusive of CLEANSING FOAM FOR MEN, TONING LOTION FOR MEN and MOISTURIZING EMULSION FLUIDE FOR MEN, PURENESS REFRESHING WATER, some makeup brushes, lipstick brush all… these are for guys and gals get something like that too. I can’t remember well those steps cause the terms she used are so AMAZING, but as what I’d observed, all other guys seems to be blur along with me, expect for one majority group of gals, seems to be understand her well and perform all the techniques correctly. I RESPECT GALS in this sense. Haha! The cleansing part takes roughly 20 minutes.

Here comes the makeup portion. She started explaining techniques to put the foundation powder all… Guys were just gazing at the gals around them, eyes soaring around soullessly and helplessly, not knowing what to do. Well, I kinda miss those days I put makeup on my face ( I often go for performance when I was young and those makeup were put on by my mom or my teacher ). Hence, I started to pick up the sponge and put the foundation powder on my face… people around was stunned at first, guys especially, but then a few followed and started too. It was fun applying those stuffs on my face, after all, it’s my first time doing this!!! After the foundation powder, I applied some kind of rose colour powder, they called it eye shadow I think, and I tried to use the “smokey” technique I saw some where on TV and I end up becoming something like a red-eyed-panda or better known as the Chinese Opera performers. Well, I don’t really mind about that because it’s my first time and it’s my masterpiece!!! I am a piece of art myself! Then I applied the mascara ( is it spelt this way? ) on eyelashes. I almost end up becoming a pure panda, thanks to my shaky hands. After applying it.. OH SHIT!! My eyelashes stick together!!! HELP!! But err.. I can still take pictures and posing to the cameras.. it’s kinda sad that the pictures are not ready to be uploaded yet. I’ll do so when it’s ready. I then seek help from the expert ----trainers from Shiseido to remove those dried up mascara for me cause I couldn’t remove it myself.. dumb dumb me.

Then it’s the hair styling session. I don’t really get what he’s trying to tell and it’s a bit too brief. I think he’s better at practical instead of explaining things to the GALS especially. The session was too brief and only last for one hour. At the end of the session, he asked the crowd :“Any question you can come and see me privately after the session ends!” I can see smiles hanging around on gals face at this very moment. Once the session was announced dismissed, just imagine a hundred over gals rushed to him to get tips on what kind of hair style and this and that. His head gotten bigger. –end-

Force of the Nature... + Surprise!!!

Chapter Force of the Nature...

Have you ever wonder how strong are you? Very strong? Naw.. Mother Earth will win you without effort by using her strong gust of wind.

I woke up like usual today,but was very tired. Dunno y... I cleaned up myself like usual, walk down to bus stop with my sleepy eyes and body. I got up d bus at 0720 and gave d UTAR bus ticket. I choose a seat near the window. I always enjoy watching out from a vehicle. The bus departed from Millenium Court ( the place that I currently staying in PJ ) at 0738. It turned into Seksyen 17 and something really caught my eyes. Branches were everywhere. BIG,small,thin,fat branches were all over on the ground. The bus took a few more turnings. Traffic lights were hit by the branches and fell on the road. Glass shattered into pieces and all overy the place.





When the bus going nearer to UTAR, i saw a tree unrooted, tearing the ground together with the roots. The tree almost crash into a furniture expo building. According to my friend who is staying in Seksyen 17, a few buildings lost their caps and a car was pushed downhill by an unrooted tree, hanging it at a slope. The car could not be tow-ed because it's stuck in the middle of the slope with mud around.

It is really scary to think that Mother Earth is starting to show off her anger against Her most precious child --HUMAN, who she think that will be able to look after Her and preserve Her as she was. She must be very frustrated and upset that the child that She put all Her hopes and effort in, has now turn Her back on, killing Her slowly by giving Her some toxic liquids to drink, put some puff in Her face,trying to choke Her to death. My dear siblings from all over the world, it is time for us to put a halt to all this. Our Mother won't be able to hold it any longer if these continue. It is time to stop because She is only showing off Her cane, She haven't hit it in our face,yet. -end-

Chapter Surprise!!!

*Continued from above*
I reached UTAR a late from usual, thanks to those branches. I drank too much water when i woke up so decided to take a leak after i placed my bag. As I was walking down the lane towards the toilet, Miss Mary, one of the Organising Committee of the Soft Skill Competency Unit approached me. "Young man, I think your English is not bad. Here's something to offer you. Would you like to be the MC for the closing ceremony of this intensive course?" said she. I was so shocked at that time. I thought she's gonna scold me because of something wrong that I did. "Another guy will be the other MC,too." she add on. My English was NO GOOD after all and that's why I'm setting up this blog to improve it. After thinking a while, I like, ok, why not? Since it is a great chance to learn something new. Training will be provided. Although there's nothing much to speak, I'll get to learn something new in different method and according to her, a small training is provided. Not only that, I'm able to show off to UTAR's President, with my...English ("'-_-"'). Haha.. So, it's a deal! I do hope that this given opportunity will give me a better learning of conveying messsages to others more confidently and clearly. Yay, I'll do my best and give all I have into it!

Well, today I learnt quite alot from the course. I get to speak to people in a better now(hopefully), and also interact with the class better. I've learnt alot from this guy too, Myocho Kan. Heard of him before? He's such a great guy with undescribable persuavive skills, such a rich body languages and marvellous English he speaks. The very first time I saw him, he doesn't give me the impression that he is such interesting guy. Once i start to talk to him, he's just totally amazing. During classes, any type of questions we throw at him, he is able to answer you and the answers given is never out of logic and reality. Know why? Because he's the Chief Learning Strategist also the CEO in his company. If you ever get the chance to go to this guy's talks or seminars, never let go of it. I'm sure you'll gain something. I guarantee this.

Well, that's all for today, let us all hope for a better tomorrows and do our best to bring out the very best of tomorrows. GAMBADE~~ -end-

Heaven of Broken English

well... just like wat d title says.. my english grammar is so terrible... so bloggers, dun blame me ya if there's too many mistakes. hmmm.. first day here.. i started out this blog bcoz i read through a few blogs of my frens.. their way of converying msg initiates me to start blogging..
well.. let me start from something....

hmmm... well. not too long ago.. something happened.. i dun feel like talking bout it much now but i have an advise for everyone.. dun trust ppl tht easily.. i've never thought of me,myself, who is always thinking tht i won't fall for such petty trick, but i fell into it...

It has been 4 months plus since i'm staying in PJ..everything went well.. except for MATHS!!! sigh.. tot it's already over but it come again... the paper was so tough tht i could hardly answer them. sob sob. but i was told to think positively.. so.. I'LL PASS MY MATHS AND I'LL NEVER RE-SIT FOR MATHS!!!

i'm currently attending a soft skill intensive course whereby it teaches us things like leadership,team building,interpersonal skills and so on.. it cost RM290 but i think it's worth it. so far, i've started to discover who am I... I hope to learn more from this course and hence, upgrading myself and then become a better person.

after reading my frenz' blogs, i found out tht this is also a good way too make my complain to the world instead of me just bugging the few person there... I would like to take this opportunity to thank them.. THANK YOU!!!

life is so unpredictable. things happen just in a blink of an eye and sometimes, we are so powerless to do anything to change wat had happened. all i could tell to my frenz tht are now in their very undelightful moments is tht, FORGIVING PEOPLE IS FORGIVING YOURSELF. PUT A SMILE ON YOUR FACE TRUTHFULLY AND MOVE FORWARD. let bygone be bygone. forgive your enemies but not their names. because they are those ppl who once brought miserable in ur life, but at d same time, they make us grow. we should thank them instead. i hope you guys out there agree with me...

things are just like tht. never ending cycle. treasure everyday. dun spare your time onli for yourself or your family,but also feedback to the society.. do wat u can to help those needy...

p/s: pls do not hesitate to criticise anything, or any opinions or improvements that i should make.. arigatogozaimasu!!!