Thursday, April 09, 2009

Emptiness...

Disclaimer: This is a vent post. If you're not interested, please go away.

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I think I have the need to vent. Frankly speaking, I had been not "feeling very well" lately. During the day, I kept myself busy and I'm ok but when night falls, I just can't stop getting feeling-not-well.

Emo can perhaps be a better word. It had been a few weeks already. Yeah, my PMS is THAT long.

For a lot of times, I can't feel people around me. I felt... nothing. Just me, myself and I.

And you, I can't blame you for what's happening. Because, you never knew. I can only blame myself for being stupid and yeah, very stupid.

Series of events happened, say, yesterday I got flagged down due to speeding; today my car got clamped. How marvellous!





I'm feeling real empty at the moment. Very empty. I only can get myself out of this, only when I'm busy. But being busy doesn't solve the root of the problem, it's only delayed.

Help.

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p/s: If you're reading this, I thank you very much. Perhaps my PMS, is, really longer than others. I hope I can take control over it soon enough before it engulfs me.

12 comments:

Tian Chad @ 永遇乐 said...

Go get a girl :)

R u going to KLCC this weekend?

buttercup said...

is not easy to get a gal that understands you and want to be with you ya knw? haa.

yeah i'm going on saturday and snap snap snap! haha!

Samuel said...

Well.. in such situation.. Myky 'the idiot' Kin Wai...always gives me the golden phrase...

GO PHUCK YOURSELF!! XD

buttercup said...

if i can, perhaps i don't mind, but too short. i cant. lol!

Riku_sien said...

ahem ahem..i shall get a little bit philosophical here....

life has it's ups and downs. It is just like a thick rope (those you use for tarik tali events)...
there will be 2 thinner ropes intertwining one another....
it symbolises that the good and bad takes turns to befall you.

So, try to look at the brighter side of everything....(i know sometimes it is hard)
but just tell yourself,

I HAVE TO LIVE THROUGH THIS WHETHER IT IS GOOD OR BAD, SO WHY NOT I GO THROUGH IT WITH A HAPPY MIND/THOUGHT?

and seriously, you'll feel much better.

cheer up dude..!! XD
*pats on the back*

(and yes, my english become KANASAI already...|||OTL)

MyKy said...

i kena banhammer'ed....
i'm feeling u mon
T____T

buttercup said...

Sien:
ya i know.. just that.. it had been kept too long. i just need to vent it somewhere. cos i realised it's affecting me kinda badly recently. So i hope i'm getting better after this ranting.

Myky:
banhammered is wat? haha.

marccus said...

amitabha~~

buttercup said...

marccus: amitabha too~

Honehbunneh said...

We all have our moments of loneliness, especially when going through a bad day.

There were many times under stressful periods, I sat there on my chair looking out the window, in the darkness, feeling cornered by the four walls around me, longing for that someone to love and be loved.

Then when it got really bad I started punching things, the wall, the table, the pillow, hurting myself, blaming myself for the stupid mistakes I've done.

I finally got over it by meditating, thinking of the positive things, being grateful that I am alive, and I should make the best of the time I have left. :)

MyKy said...

who's pinky?

buttercup said...

Honehbunneh:
hey.. thanks! and your name sounds familiar too! haha! i'm much better now d. thanks!

MyKy: cumming d!

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