Emptiness...

Disclaimer: This is a vent post. If you're not interested, please go away.

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I think I have the need to vent. Frankly speaking, I had been not "feeling very well" lately. During the day, I kept myself busy and I'm ok but when night falls, I just can't stop getting feeling-not-well.

Emo can perhaps be a better word. It had been a few weeks already. Yeah, my PMS is THAT long.

For a lot of times, I can't feel people around me. I felt... nothing. Just me, myself and I.

And you, I can't blame you for what's happening. Because, you never knew. I can only blame myself for being stupid and yeah, very stupid.

Series of events happened, say, yesterday I got flagged down due to speeding; today my car got clamped. How marvellous!





I'm feeling real empty at the moment. Very empty. I only can get myself out of this, only when I'm busy. But being busy doesn't solve the root of the problem, it's only delayed.

Help.

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p/s: If you're reading this, I thank you very much. Perhaps my PMS, is, really longer than others. I hope I can take control over it soon enough before it engulfs me.

Got Saman On My Birthday! WTF!

First of all, thanks everyone for wishing me Happy Birthday! Now, this time the birthday kinda special I feel. Haha!

My mom actually sang the birthday song, and MMS to me! LOL! Thanks Mom!

Birthday Cake from family

And this is something very special from Ray & Chia Wuen. It's called a 蛋糕[cake]. Now, how special is this cake? As you can see, this is together with chicken floss, and it's made from egg! Truly 蛋糕!

And it's sweet! Chia Wuen's recipe! haha!

Now, something happened to me today. I almost forgot. After my boss brought me to have Happy Meal(ctually, McD la~ hahaha), I went back on routine to work. As usual, I was driving down the MRR2.

I felt kinda sleepy today so, I did not drive fast. As far as I remembered, I drove only 80kmph. Out of a sudden, I saw a few cars started to flash their lights from the opposite lanes. I immediately checked my car speed again. It's still 80kmph.

True enough, there's a roadblock down the road. So, I was thinking, "Hmmmm.. sure la you let me through. I did not sped also. Blek~"

The traffic police flagged me down. O.o!!! WTF?! How come!?!?! How COOOOOOOOOOOME!? No choice, I stopped my car.

"Tuan, apa salah saya ar?"

"Speeding. Kasi Lisen"

"Speeding? Berapa?" *This is some awareness for you out there. Don't be so stupid to just do what the police says. Ask them why you're at fault.*

"Sini 80 saja. Kamu 93."

Surely, they won't show you the evidence.

"Tuan, boleh diskaun ar?"

"Diskaun tak boleh. Cancel boleh."

O.O!! Wah, so good? No need discount some more can help me to cancel? I was a bit head-not-thinking-cleary at that moment, I asked, "Macama mana cancel ar?"

"50."

He kept on writing something on his paper(of which ALL the policemen will do), and I was wondering, if he'll catch me if I treat him coffee. I kept quiet for quite a while.

"Macam mana? Mau cancel ke tak? Kalau saya keluar ini, tak dapat cancel dah."

"Saya tak cukup duit..."

"Tak ada duit ambil saman ini. 300 saja.", I kept quiet again.

"Betulkah takrak duit?", he asked again.

"Tak cukup... Bagi saya saman itulah."

"O.O!! Betul ar mau saman? Berapa kau boleh bagi?"

"20."

"30."

"ok."

"Lipat dan kasi."

Clean. Now, I just realised something. Even treating others to drink coffee, you'll still need to have the trust in the person. No matter how bad are you, we all live based on trust.

And, thanks to that police, I'm clean. Hey, who's speeding?! I mean, WTF, I don't remember me speeding anyway. But, as they flagged down you, it means that, they have(and possibly don't have) the evidence. On the other hand, dear police please see the picture below. F9U! Lost RM30 for that!

And this girl is kinda cute! LOL!

I want to fly! No Air Traffic Police!

p/s: really suey, birthday some more kena saman~ LOL!

SinKeat's Bday In Advance

Went to celebrate SinKeat's birthday in advance just now. She didn't know that we are celebrating for her until the moment the cake come out! Haha. I can see she suspected something but things carry on like nothing happen then, Mr Cake came!

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2: "This cake is not for you de"
"Jiooor.."

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5: And thanks to our photographer that night...

6: We have this!

p/s: It had been about 2 weeks since I last photoshoot-ed in Singapore. My baby camera actually gave me a dream and it got lost in my dream. I promise I'll take more pictures from time to time k?

Freedom of Speech

Now, this may get a little sensitive. And, even if it's April's Fool, don't lie that you don't know recent small thing that's happening between the Amadika & Maresiah.

Well, it's not too bad actually. Just that, freedom of speech. Now, come and think of it, "Hey, who are you guys to control what I'm fuckin' saying?" suddenly seems to be so right!

And, "Who gives you the rights to control whatever things that's coming out from my mouth?" seems to be damn true too!

Now, for many people in Maresiah, and if you read the GutterUncensored, many things you know that's happening. Many things that you don't know.

Internet is a powerful tool to spread information, at the right time, the righteous info. Sometimes, when the other party is at stake, he/she wants to get rid of something else. To put it into another picture, it's just so simple. Let's take the story below for an example.

ONE day. I robbed and killed a woman behind an alley. Blaine saw it. I kill him to shut him up. When I can't be sure that he will keep his mouth shut, I MAKE SURE he shut his mouth.

Of course, it's just a metaphore (did i spelt this right? Who cares, as long as you get the idea!). It's just like murder, in another context. Speaking of freedom of speech. Bah.

Well, Mr Gutter, have a nice day and I believe, you have 200,000 of backs supporting you. Geeesh... Hopefully won't get into any trouble. You know, I know.

Oh ya, by the way, enjoy the following video. Damn funny!!!!

Lost My Baby! No Way!

Few days ago, I dreamt about something. I lost my baby in my dream. For a moment, it appeared to be so real to me. I went up and down, east and west searching for it, but, it's not there.

Now that I think of it, I realised, I had deserted my baby for quite a while already. A long while. It's time to start working again, baby!

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And I was supposed to do damn a lot of ranting today. But, thanks to my friends who brought me out for badminton, I'm fine now.

Tomorrow is a whole new day!