Secret Reveals

Some truth had been revealed today. I realised how much you had suffered. I'd been through that as well. Seeing you being sad, upset, not realising that it had happened. I thought I think too much.
I'm kind of hurt, seeing you being sad, because of him. I can barely stand it because I feel the pain that you felt. When I heard the truth, my mind went blank. I don't know what to do and what to think. I'm speechless at that moment. I don't even know how I should feel.

Well now, I feel like standing aside, because, I know that, the other him was also informed about this and he's trying to after you. I wish you all the best, and please, don't make the same mistake again. If you hurt, I mostly will feel hurt again.

God bless you, be strong!

Back From Home

Hmmm... Everytime come back from home, make me miss my home more. But I do feel better. I'm re-charged. Ate a lot back there. Gonna be fat already... sob.

Me gonna rest for the rest of Merdeka Day... I'll continue my war tomorrow. Wait, I think I'm gonna start it in a short while. Try to guess why....

*Yesterday*

"Since I'm going back, I'll let you have my account la. But, spare me 2 hours at least when I come back. I need to do something online," I said.

"Sure sure. No problem." He replied.


*Today 31st Aug 2006 2130*

WTF???? Only 51 mins left for me??? Darn!!! I knew this will happen. There goes my credit for internet connection in hostel, for THIS MONTH. That's the bad news. The good news is, it's the end of this month already!!! Yay!!! I might disconnect for a few hours later but I'll (hopefully) get back online after midnight.

Have to be prepared when you give or lend people something, isn't it?


Signing off.

Sadness; Rest; Re-schedule; Back To The Front Line

Well, it's motivating isn't it? Yes it is. Very. Everything is like repeating. Well, just like what CP said, it's all in the mind. I know the theory but, I'm unable to apply it to myself. Hurts, it really hurts. But this feeling makes me feel alive.

Very much alive.

Oh well, it doesn't really matter that much isn't it? Ups and downs in life play important roles in our lives right? Repetitions might as well be my illusions. Sweet and bitter illusions.

Decided to go back one day today. I need a break. Since I've finished revising for biology, I have some "extra time" to do so, gather with family a while. Once in a while.

I appreciate that motivation. Thanks. I must and I will overcome this sort of "genjutsu*". Lord Finals, shi-ne**!


*Genjutsu = Illusion technique
**shi-ne= Die

Arrghh.. Determination!!!

Haha... Finally I can start to study already, with that little bit of motivation. In fact, I'm doing quite well with it... My roommate playing DotA, I can stand it. But....

"Kage bunshin no justsu!"

"Rasengan!"

"Baga Tsunade opasang!"

"Wei Naruto!"

Whenever I hear all these, my head automatically turns towards the source and watch it for a long time...

*Shoot! I'm watching it again!!! Damn!*

I'd better continue... Sigh.. Naruto, you "messed" my plan....

This Is What I Need

Haha... It sounded stupid but, this is the what I need, to motivate me a little in studies. It's more than enough, although it is just that little bit. You gave me the feeling, in these few days. Feel like we are in the past, repeating the same thing again, of course something in the middle has changed.

Maybe you didn't realised it. But, I felt it. Human's relationship world is always like this, complicated right? Right there in front of you, but all you can do is to melt in the very few moments. I treasured those moments a lot. Thanks.

Gotta sign off to study.... Again, thanks, you gave me the feeling again.



*Buttercup, wake up!!!!*



Yeah, I'm awake! Just wanna be in there a little longer. It might not come again. Haha. STUDY!